Monday, August 4

is this the real life?... is this just fantasy?...


Mhmm, I took a long walk/run this morning to burn some illegal stuff and got the chance to spend some time just with myself... well, and the world around. I had the phones on, of course, and I must say that just seeing the world moving is quite a show, and just hearing the music and your thoughts feels pretty good...

So off I went, wearing shorts, my lafayette t-shirt and my water bottle. I certainly didn't look like a usual neighborhood girl, and I could tell this by the way everyone was starring at me. But hey! why be normal? and then again, what's normal anyway... And then, while I was running and walking, I realised I was happy and smiling just like that... well, it's probably because of the happy email I got from Nafis this morning, cause he got home and was so excited... And I was excited and happy with him too... I think that was pretty cool! I mean, maybe each of our individual lives don't have exciting things happening daily and there are just too many things that usually make us upset, so being happy just because good things are happening to someone else is a really cool deal! This doesn't quite mean, of course, that I was upset or sth, but it usually really brightens my day when I hear someone being happy... those positive vibes are just sticky, and feels really good :)

Then I got to my first school... I went there two years of kindergarten and 4 years primary school... I found it small, they had changed the windows, and I guess the fence too, cause I don;t remember it being so high... And I went around the school, on the usual paths... I was pretty nervous... It was a shame that they closed the big field behind the school - I mean, they didn't really close it, just left it be... and now there was a lot of bad weeds growing there... and least they could have made it into a park... Then I got to the side field... how small it looked now... It's amazing, I remember exactly my first day of school in line there... and how I broke my leg playing football in 4th grade...


So I left... while going downhill I noticed my city...it doesn't necessarily look good at all, but it was pleasantly familiar. And then the Danube looked beautiful again in the morning sun, but this wast just because I was watching it from the upper promendade... it was big and shiny from there... however then I went down again... too much trash and garbage... even too many used condoms or condom packages (lol?!) and then there was this huuge gathering of garbage on the water and ppl were fishing just near it... So I was looking at it and, inspired as I was, I decided that tomorrow I'd take pictures of it and some other stuff and send them to the mayor with a letter. And I'm gonna ask some ppl to co-sign it with me :) social responsibility, right?!

Well, that's my walk, then I just came back. I mean not just came back... I was still thinking what to write in the letter and what I'm gonna do next year at laf... So peace to everyone! And green peace too :)